Everything OK, oh goddess of the Internet? We worry about you when you post things like today's "entry":

"the latest update: 15 February 2000 No Squishy entry today. Maybe not tomorrow. I'm not sure when there will be one again. I'm sorry."

That sort of thing scares us. You can't leave us hanging like this! (And not for selfish reasons, either, i.e., just because we can't live without our daily dose of pamie. We worry about you!!)

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

Answers

WORD, yo!

Hope everything is OK in pamie land.

[sending "good wishes" fairy dust your way pamie].

yours faithfully, Christine

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

i'm going to assume it's a "life just got crazy and this fun stuff is on hold" sort of deal. you know, as opposed to a "this journal is goin' down" thang.

of course, in either case the chances of pamie coming and answering are pretty slim :)

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

Hey, pamie, hope you're okay... today's "entry" kicked my "mom" genes in, so I'm just asking. Hang in there (and mrow).

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

Sending hugs your way, Pamie, even if you don't read this. I hope all is well in Pamieland.

As ChickenGrrl said, it's not that we miss reading you everyday (though you are always a bright spot in the day), it's that we worry about you. Hopefully everything is well in your life. Your message sounded kind of gloomy.

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

i read on fametracker (a site that pamie occasionally contributes to) that she is in toronto...here's to hoping that distance is the only thing keeping pamie away

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

I second what's been written. I hope everything is OK and life just got a little nuts.

Thinking of you (and assuming that you just got some cool voiceover gig for more nifty anime, and not that anything bad happened)...

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

I had forgotten about pamie being gone. Yesterday's entry faked me out, I guess!

-- Anonymous, February 15, 2000

What? She's in Toronto and she hasn't stopped by to say Hi?

The noive...

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

I think the comedy festival is in Aspen, not Toronto. So don't feel too snubbed, Ron!

Hear hear to what everyone's said w/r/t hoping you're ok and just busy, not distraught, pamie. We miss you.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

I'm really glad to read that the reason for Pamie's absence seems to be benign rather than some horrendous trauma--when I read on the front page she wasn't sure when the next entry would be, I freaked out! Not because of "What will happen to this page?!" fears, but because of something she herself said in one of the previous entries--that reading someone's online journal, you start to feel like you know who they are, and you care about what happens to them. And if they suddenly stop writing, you still wonder what's going on in their lives. So I hope all is well with you!

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Hugs and good wishes to Pamie - wherever she is, whatever she is doing.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Maybe she's taking longer in Aspen so that she can find Jerry Lewis and kick his ass. Here's hoping.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Hope all is well Pamie.

Thinking of you.

Di

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

I have a theory about what's going on with Pamie. It's probably really shitty of me to talk about it in the forum because I could be totally off base here, and I don't want to make any existing problems worse, but I'm afraid my speculative mind has got the better of me.

I think all of this has something to do with Pamie and Stee.

That's all I'm going to say. I've probably already said too much.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Are you serious?

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

I don't think any of us should speculate on anything because we're not there and Pamie gave us no indication of what's actually going on, except that it has something to do with changes. We should all just hang back, let Pamie figure this one out, and she'll tell us in due time. She's got a strong standing behind her, and we need to be supportive rather than speculative because it's only going to make things worse if she constantly has to explain to us that 'no, that's not it' and 'you guessed wrong again' stuff.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Ew. I am so grossed out that you are trying to turn Pamie's forum into rude gossip behind her back, Max. Your nasty speculation should be kept to yourself.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Dude, if you have to preface something with "I probably shouldn't be saying this," then guess what, you probably shouldn't be saying it.

As for me, I just hope Pamie is OK, wherever she is.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Max, your speculation makes no sense. Stee is someone who is very playful by nature. You see this by his casual references to going to strip clubs and the occasional joint smoked. In meatspace, I suspect that he is very flirtation with women, and sexual flirtation is a sign that Stee doesn't mean business. I don't mean this to disparage him, but without further evidence, your speculation is very dangerous.

Pamie, on the other hand, is very protective by nature. She, I suspect, behaves very deliberately in meatspace, and probably gives off signals that she means business. Taking this into consideration, you speculations become doubly dangerous. Please understand that your actions have consequences you may be unable to fathom.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

um, guys? I think Max was joking. At least, I hope so.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

If we care about pamie as much as we claim to, we should keep her in our thoughts and prayers, give her as much space as she needs, and stop all this speculation and innuendo.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

One point to make: it's Pamie we're discussing here. She knows how to take care of herself. She won't do anything stupid.
(Pamie... take care, ok?)

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

*hugs* while you figure this all out. I'm sure whatever it is, you'll handle it to the best of your ability.

windy.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Uh, yeah. Just to echo what everyone else has said. No more jokes or gossip, just come back safe, pamie. We're thinking of you.

-- Anonymous, February 16, 2000

Whoa! Man, you guys take this stuff really seriously don't you? Of course I was joking about Pamie and Stee - jeez.

Don't they live like...thousands of miles apart?

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

joking or not, it doesn't sound like now is the best time to be doing so.

pamie, take all the time in the world to figure out what you need to figure out. we'll be fine. and by all means, don't feel obligated to come back and spill your heart out to us. you don't owe us anything, and you shouldn't write something that you're not comfortable with only to please the masses. wait until you're ready. we'll be here.

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

Ditto what Heather said. Life and your privacy is far more important than entertaining people on the internet. If you need to keep this private forever and ever, then do it.

Good luck, Pamie.

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

...love to you, dear one...

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

sending all my good chi your way

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

Well, I don't know from chi, but here's wishing you a large, comforting cup of chai. Not the same, I'd imagine, but it helps me sometimes.

Best wishes, Pamie, and best of luck.

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

Ditto, tambien yo, and me too to all the above. Hang tight, Pamie...do what you have to do, and we'll be here for you.

Only addition: I really and truly think something super-freaky is going on with a lot of people right now. I, for one, am feeling all-new levels of groundlessness, like there's not one thing I can depend on. My job's all floaty and feels like it could fall apart at any moment, I've applied to grad school but won't hear about it until the end of April (which is when, interestingly enough, my major ex-beau and best friend are getting married, an event I'm still totally unable to decide whether I am mentally stable enough to attend), and even if I *do* get into grad school, I don't think I can afford to go what with rent being so incredibly infuckingsane here in SF, which I just so happen to know because my love life is at a major shit-or-get-off-the-pot juncture, so I've been looking around for a possible studio to move into by my lonesome, but they cost circa $1200 and what if I go to grad school and I have no job and how-oh-how will I pay for it all? Plus I have adult acne.

Shit.

Anyway, you're not alone, P...there's something evil making the rounds (that Mercury/retrograde thing people in the Bay Area keep talking?). Maybe we just have to hold on and it will pass soon enough, like that epic flu that we all had in December.

Here's to hoping so.

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000

I have long suspected that there's a weird early February-Valentine's thing that goes on with all of emotionally and I for one have yet to escape a single V-Day without some major shakeup in my love life, work-life or life-life. I don't know about planets aligning, but this time of year always fills me with a bit of dread.

o.

-- Anonymous, February 17, 2000