I wonder if it was ever the cosmic plan for humans to truely get along. As I think I'm growing in spirit ,I wonder does the spirit ever really grow to a higher consciousness. Or , are we so trap in the illusion of worldy attachment (one being ,the believing in attaining a higher consciousness than we had before ) ,that we belive we are growing in spiritaul developement but nothing more has grown than our ego , from believeing we are are raising our own consciousness . . . ......................................................................................................................... ....I find speaking truthfully of how I believe or see things, recieves no acceptence from others...But a skilled artistic way of speaking in smooth and sweet covered lies is taken and recieved openly and willingly and even pulled in to be embraced by others. So should one keep lying to be in acceptence with others.Or is it better to remain at speaking , what you truely feel toward others and take rejection as the payment of speaking in truth of your feelings. . . What becomes in questain now ; is rejection bad or good? ... The famous statement ,"Eat not of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil ,eat of the fruit of life" , comes to mind...... Rejection could seem bad if you've become addicted or , attached , to being dependent of the acceptence of other humans to feel good about yourself .Is the needing , to be well accepted by others , spiritual awakening or weakness ? Is it enforcing the tightening of the noose from the rope that ties us into worldly attachments . ............ .. Does rejection from others , when you speak to them in a truthful manner , become a good thing...Maybe the ones , who you feel rejected from , continue to reinforce their illusions by forming alliences with others trap in the same worldly attachment and illusions, as they themselves are . ....Together they comfort each other and provide a place where they can feel safe and comfortable continueing their illusions and attachments. ..................................................................................................................................... Then would this mean true evolutionary , spiritual transformation is something one must go at alone. To evolve spiritually , doesn't one have to break off being attached to worldly things... Would friends and accepting peers fit into the category of worldly attachments. If so , then wouldn't spiritual evolutionary growth mean being lonely. Or is being lonely just the refusal of letting go of the attachment of peers and friends.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................As my believing humans are connected to a devine source by a thread like light, and as all , being connected to the same devine source , than we are all connected to each other...If we tune in our consciousness to the angle as which we can see the connection and feel the connection, than we can feel and realize we are never alone...........................................................................................................................The illusion of loneliness recieved by the detaching from peers and friends fads, as we learn to use other senses besides ,sight , touch ,hearing and smelling ,as these are the senses most commonly used to connect with another , but are not the limit or only ways to connect with another...................................................................................................................... ..When one learns of the connection by the thread of light to the devine source as we all commonly share, we lose any false sense of loneliness and no longer need the reinforcement of acceptance from our peers or friends... Acceptance from our peers , is sensually pleasing and a pleasurable , earthly attachment. It's morphine like in nature, to our earthly senses.. It feels so good , that even if the continuance of this attachment , affects spiritual growth , we refuse to give it up. aaahhhh!!!!!............

-- Steve (Unreal@home.com), September 11, 2002